i dont really know what i wanna say..i know that i am feeling very inspired, without being able to do anything about it (yet). like helen keller almost, handicapped..it's a helpless powerless feeling i cant explain. i am not writing out of self-pity (its not like i'm incapable), i am writing as a reminder to myself how this time feels, not being a musician-yet having so much music in me. (i have a dictaphone in the meantime to help combat this problem, get down the melodies and so forth)..its so strange..i was thinking this morning, my mom told me yesterday, we were driving, and she reminded me of something i told her when i was 14. it's funny b/c that same thing holds true today and i forgot i had told her that (acting related). it's just interesting seeing my past catch up to my present more and more.
ps. i accept this as a lifelong struggle until i GET LESSONS (or teach myself)
currently listening to: Lightfoot