There's a lot of Hostility in NY.

...... Unlike i've seen anywhere else. There's this sense of 'self- defensiveness' .... that i havent seen anywhere. This hip hop bravado attitude- that is especially unique to NY. (the city). I was riding the subway today- the 4 train to be exact, and on it- a man was rapping 'spoken word' poem what have you...... of really crass cruel- hate talk. He was throwing around the word 'faggot' like it was no one's business...... right in front of a clearly, gay man. It was really sad and disheartening- and part of me wanted to cry..... plus there were kids and babies right there- in ear shot.

It's just an attitude and hostility towards life ive never really witnessed before. Slowly but surely i am seeing the 'hard knocks life' / underbelly side of nyc. Its taken a while actually... Ive met so many nice lovely ppl.... but there is that. And i almost forget sometimes where i am, til i am rudely awakened/ shocked by it. By these other ppl who are just as representative of the region. Anyhow- i forget sometimes..... n then i am reminded so brutally reminded. Not gently shaken but like...... punched in the face reminded- you aint in Kansas anymore..... and its very apparent- more times than others. But not a lot (thankfully). Just a mere observation....... I see why and how hip hop came out of here. It's still a live and well, that whole attitude and everything- its interesting living in a region with such strong musical roots- and seeing that firsthand alive and well. The hip hop mentality is still very much ablaze. I also have a new appreciation for hip hop like i didnt before. It's a long story, but i just do, I also was listening to old Kanye shortly before i moved to nyc.