Tara's Blog

There's a lot of Hostility in NY.

...... Unlike i've seen anywhere else. There's this sense of 'self- defensiveness' .... that i havent seen anywhere. This hip hop bravado attitude- that is especially unique to NY. (the city). I was riding the subway today- the 4 train to be exact, and on it- a man was rapping 'spoken word' poem what have you...... of really crass cruel- hate talk. He was throwing around the word 'faggot' like it was no one's business...... right in front of a clearly, gay man. It was really sad and disheartening- and part of me wanted to cry..... plus there were kids and babies right there- in ear shot.

It's just an attitude and hostility towards life ive never really witnessed before. Slowly but surely i am seeing the 'hard knocks life' / underbelly side of nyc. Its taken a while actually... Ive met so many nice lovely ppl.... but there is that. And i almost forget sometimes where i am, til i am rudely awakened/ shocked by it. By these other ppl who are just as representative of the region. Anyhow- i forget sometimes..... n then i am reminded so brutally reminded. Not gently shaken but like...... punched in the face reminded- you aint in Kansas anymore..... and its very apparent- more times than others. But not a lot (thankfully). Just a mere observation....... I see why and how hip hop came out of here. It's still a live and well, that whole attitude and everything- its interesting living in a region with such strong musical roots- and seeing that firsthand alive and well. The hip hop mentality is still very much ablaze. I also have a new appreciation for hip hop like i didnt before. It's a long story, but i just do, I also was listening to old Kanye shortly before i moved to nyc.

Labels: hip hop, kanye west, nyc

Hip Hop and Rap.

I dont know why- but lately.......... ive been obsesseD w/ hip hop and rap.

Not sure why.......... anyway- i think its to do with certain changes/ certain things going on in my life..... and as i look at these circumstances- i definitely dont think its a coincidence- that i am listening to so much hip hop and stuff. It's got an attitude and air- unlike any other genre- 'take it or leave it' whatcha gonna do 'uHH' kinda attitude. gangsta. bravado. i like that gruff attitude that in your face confrontation- no bs kinda way. esp right now.

anyhow- from a musical standpoint- it does a really interesting job- 'musicalizing' sex. i know thats not a word (musicalizing)- but i think sums this up best. it soundtracks sex/ eroticsm in an interesting way unlike any other genre (too)....... and not necessarily why i like it- but just something i find interesting/ noticed today on my walk.

some of it i do like- some of it iS sexy- and i dont mind.

some of it is really cheesy/ too dirty for me..... but u get both- and i hear interesting things happening more and more w/in the genre (now)- unlike ive heard- and is probably also why i'm being drawn to it. theres a lot of interesting rhythms happening and production wise- i dont know...... i'm just gravitating towards it.

i find a relationship happening- between (whats happening in my life)- and the music i am being drawn too........ (hip hop/ beats/ heavy thickness beats/ baM/ no bs). this is how its gonna be- take it or leave it. and i just find that interesting and wanted to jot down. ok- the End.

Labels: hip hop, kanye west, miguel, rap